Thoughts:

This may sound melodramatic, but I'm pretty sure I'm drowning in my own life. I'm barely keeping my head above water and I feel like I'm going under. I haven't felt this way in a while, but it's a crushing, defeated feeling. Today was just the straw that broke the camels back, so to speak.

Things will look different, better, in the morning. I'll probably feel better once I talk to my mom, too. She'll listen, I'll talk, cry. Then she'll advise. I'll pray about it, sleep on it and it will be okay in the morning.

On a side note, what I wouldn't give for wireless internet! I'm tethered to the kitchen with my laptop and my brother is playing some sort of RPG war game that involves talking loudly to other members of the same game... It's annoying.